While I've been ignoring this blog (I apologize to my few + faithful readers ) during the past couple months, I've been mailing many many handwritten, real life thank you notes. Thank you for coming, thank you for my graduation gift, thank you for my christmas gift, thank you for hangin in there with me and every other sort of gratitude-infused message.
While I'm thankful for everyone in my life-- people who come to see me, people who get me beautiful things, people who look out for me and encourage me -- I am also completely relieved that the season of getting, giving, seeing, wrapping, shopping is over and that life has resumed a quiet lull. If this lull were a color it would be grey. A beautiful color to sit in after the array of neons that proceeded it. It's back to Eric and me and my slippers in the evening. I can dust or read or switch the lamp and the couch around because that's what I feel like doing.
It's here that I can feel the heartbeat of life again. I can hear myself think and begin to, gingerly, gather all my thoughts together and craft a direction and dream for myself. I use the word dream lightly. For instance, if I dream about making a hair appointment, I am allowed the freedom to do so. Similarly, when I dream about moving back to the East Coast, I also feel the freedom to begin inching in that direction. The fog of academics and holiday frenzy has finally been lifted and I can put my sails up once again in the life-giving, cool breeze of a hushed mid january.
3 comments:
always love your posts.
i am enjoying the quiet grey, too.
kyrie, should seriously consider writing a book.
your phrase about putting your sails up resonates with me. Although, I can't say I have reached that point yet. this january is very (unusually) busy for me with a move and also many extra work responsibilities. although, I want to sit back and relax really badly. i'd like the freedom to bake a batch of cookies, or even just sit and do a craft without the nagging feeling i'm procrastinating on something.
my heart is happy to know your in this new season of rest. praying for you.
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